I Want To Love You
11 December 2019
I want to love you
A love that is pure
Don't just desire me inspire me
The object of your affections yet u retire me
U push me away and u say another day
Leave my messages unopened and
Never reply me
But I still keep pushing because of those old heart strings
That u awoke
I am at a loss not used to being
not the boss
Trying to redefine my purpose in this facade
So I'm open and I say to you
Spend time
Now my spending time don't mean under the sheets it means
I
Want
To
Know
You
I'm a deep thinker and a lot of times I over think but
My hearts been broken
And not like you think
Well that too but in another way u couldn't imagine
When the ones that should be protecting u turn around and neglect u
And when there done breaking u
The empty shell of what u was
Becomes u
Sy7r3n
Future
23 May 2018
I want a love a love so deep it has no end like the ocean
Intense like the waves crashing through on a stormy night.
I want honesty and openness
To be protected and safe.
I want u
And I will always only ever want u
Respect is given to received receive to be given.
Trust is earned
I want time.
Time to breathe but also your time so we can grow and strengthen our connection
Most of all I want u to love me deeply openly intensely full of passion
Look at me each day with an intensity as if we are the only ones in the universe
Light up the stars with our love
Inspire others with our love
I want u to be my companion my go to friend I can always count on because I want to be your everything
I want to grow with u laugh and cry with u if we must then I will fight with u. I want a lasting love that won't ever fade we would be so deep in love there would be no room for mistrust and hate no room for other women or men.
And when you mad talk to me when your sad talk to me u just want to vent talk to me I want all of u not a part of u.
Because all the things I am asking for are all the things I'm already willing to give.
Sy7r3n
She Gave Up On Love
18 February 2019
She gave up on love in search of a friend
One she could confide in
Laugh and surf with
No boundaries no barriers
Just pure sincerity
She gave up on love for a friend
To hold her hand when things got rough
To pass the tissues when emotions over flowed
She gave up on love for a friend
Belly laughs and comforting hugs
Running through the rain in winter
And Boat rides in spring
She gave up on love for a friend
To cry when she cried
Comforting words to help her mend.
She gave up on love for a friend!!
Sy7r3n
Time
20 February 2019
Time she needed time
In order to heal one must feel
The years of pain and hurt were unleashed all at once the door smashed open without warning no signal and without caution.
One must feel in order to heal
She felt everything,
everything she suppressed
the years of hurt
the years of sadness
the years of lies
the years of loss
the years of searching
the years of absorbing everyone but herself.
All her strength depleted with one swift expression.
There is strength in tears
Every raw emotion process it and set it free
Scream cry if u need to get angry let it out
In order to heal one must first feel
Let out all those bottled up emotions
Let it pour out of u like rain smashing against a solid space sound waves ripple through the air to the scream of the scarred heart.
Feel the pain each time u inhale
Each time you exhale set it free
Let go of the anger
Let go of the moment
And close the door.
Each time u inhale
feel the resentment
let it course through you
Each time you exhale set it free
Let go of the resentment.
Let go of the reason
Close the door
In order to heal one must first feel
Inhale feel the sadness
Exhale set it free
You have no need to be
let go of your sadness
Close the door.
Inhale the grief
Allow yourself to grieve
Pour it out to the universe
Let your tears flow like hot lava from the eruption of your hearts volcano
Set it free
In order to heal one must first feel.
Inhale.
feel the anger, feel the rage
For this is the toughest one
Don't blame yourself.
Don't ask why.
Exhale set it free.
let go of your anger
forgive them
Let go of your anger
Forgive yourself
Let go of your anger
Forgive yourself
Let go of your anger
say that again because it is the toughest emotion to set free
and finally
Close the door
Inhale feel the loss
Ask all the questions you will answer them in time.
Exhale Accept the loss
Let it go set it free
Let it flow across the ocean floor like the soft ripple of the waves at the seas surface.
Each stage takes time
each different with a different emotional attachment. Sometimes they catch u in unexpected moments.
don't push the process away.
embrace it.
each process is different.
refresh reset and begin anew
one must feel in order to heal.
Sy7r3n
Vengeance
12 January 2021
The hate almost consumed me
A Picture can speak a thousand lies.
Across the skies and further through time.
Even though u tried to break me,
Leave me battered and naked
I bore my soul to u, inside was peace
Opened my heart for u inside was love
An all u did was try to dim my light,
The light that brought u to me u tried to extinguish
And as I sit here writing this with all this anguish a little voice in my head tells me it's time to accomplish,
Accomplish my dreams of a reality I have not yet foreseen.
See it's time to let go and let God
Because the way u hurt me only God can save me.
The valve to my heart bust open, the pain in my chest I could not breathe, in that moment I wanted the entire earth to cry. I wanted it all to burn dry see u in it and kill u no lie
Emotions so intense I was ready to die.
I wanted u to suffer, my love for u turned sour hate seeped in like venom and tried to spread to my veins in an expeditious manner
But yet again that voice it spoke, don't worry hunni u won't always be broke so just stay woke.
The fire burns inside of me so uncontrollably setting fire to rain just wasn't enough.
I wanted blood to rain down and flow through the mud. As I stamped u into the earth core.
But alas vengeance comes with a cost, and I can tell u it's not worth the loss.
such a loss in my mind vengeance was mine and u were gonna pay the price. The price of disrespecting me, using my insecurities against me the lies how slippery. The lies so sweet u could eat them up like candy and think it's a treat. u wanted to make me accept the disharmony I could see it in your eye see u betted on the possibility that u could bend me using my kindness for weakness against me.
My moral compass was saying plenty, but I turned a blind eye and acted like I was 20 now I'm so empty. This is dead to me.
But I'm glad though, coz your betrayal it hurt me brought back past pain and it irks me, that I have to again dig deep and console me dig deep and repair me dig deep and again mend me. so when the right one comes it's a whole me not broken and twisted me but the whole complete me. Yeah You missed it.
Mama always said don't let a man tell you he don't want u more than once.
Vengeance was mine and now I'm paying the price, on this dry Ice with dry eyes and a dry cry please don't pry, as hard as this was truth in it is I found my voice and I made peace with it.
So now I eat with it and sleep with it, sit down and write sheets with it.
Sy7r3n
Not A Singer
14 March 2021
I'm not a singer
I'm not a rapper but I'm slightly dapper.
In the way I aspire to achieve my dream the dream I was told could never be me
Yet still I chose to aspire to be. Much more than what u think of me.
Between your criticism and you down trodding me. Yes I still rose to be, more than what u think of me.
When u see me walk by hope a lil pee slip out like the words from your mouth, knowing it don't count just on a roll u soft bitch ass mother fucker.
How many times I wanted to walk away and U begged me to stay. In the corner on face time hiding from your mother. Popping pills telling your other woman that you love her. Why u hiding under the cover.
waste of space broken minded mother fucker. You musta thought u were clever, Yes I still rose to be to be more than what u thought I could be.
My eyes were never closed. Maybe partially but it was the me wanting U that did it for me, I had to check me who the fuck I be. I am the prize don't be surprised, walk in my stride head held high. u a soft ass bitch. U a dumb motherfucker, a lil bum motherfucker, walking around letting everyone dump on u type of fucker.
Glad I took back my umbrella, no time for that shower, so I took back my fire. As fast as the light rays could zip through space with strength like Orion. It's apparent. now go cower and retreat in your corner. Forever knowing u have no power.
Your so sour
Sy7r3n
Love Taught Me
16 June 2021
I took it all down
And I started again
With my pen I began again /
Wiped the slate clean and decided again.
To chose me all the way to the end
On me I depend see they say love teaches u many thing but realistically it was the not knowing self and with society's help toxic actions became acts of love wrapped in a hug
Doubled done with if u love me u would…
If I love me u would would doubles down with let me manipulate u real good
Love right me all that's hood
Them words I love you that what they say to try catch u get your heart storing so they can trap you I take my hat of to them curtesy and step past dem.
Let me give u a next one that love taught me.
See love taught me to love me
My anger came to protect me
And people came to test me
Nuff times I was so invested I should be arrested
I was so interested but then I left him
Coz I'm the best thing
Love taught me to love me coz I'm worth the investment
Sy7r3n
Bitch Move Over
August 2021
Bitch move over, this is not a do over.
U don't get to screw me over
It's been over u gonna see me riding in that Range Rover. Don't ask me to pull over I'm not your chauffeur.
Its funny how life comes at you fast
People u know don't wanna see u grow
Constantly telling u they don't think u can grow.
I Wanna elevate so bad some days I procrastinate lost in my mind trying to navigate
Through the crosses placed on my plate when I just ate.
Bitch move over this is not a do over u don't get to screw me over.
All that time energy really thought u was a friend. Where was u then when I lost my child where was u when tired was the word and I was ready to check out.
Yet u slander my name and act like your in pain when there's nothing to gain (arrgghh) your insane. Making all the stories sound the same so u would have someone to blame,
All along it was you u needed to blame, all your projections coming from your insane brain, put down the cane it's time u retire go handle the rain.
Bitch move over this is not a do over. Your time is up yes u messed up. Cards were dealt feelings were felt cut so deep knowing u had no respect for me so respectfully I'm gonna need you to step from me, u dead to me so u could never step to me.
— Sy7r3n
Words
24 September 2024
Ooo ahhhh yeaaahhh
If I could put it in words I
would write in a song
With u is where I want to belong,
telling u all this is all so long.
But wearing my heart on my sleeve is so wrong.
Go long,
rest your head on my shoulders and sing me a song,
sing me to submission, coz tonight will be prolonged.
pass me that bong.
Only u can remove my thong.
Is that wrong
Come remove my thong
Yeah
Thinking bout U is all I wanna do
Thinking bout how I'm a take u to school
And make drool
Feeling on my body when I'm thinking about u
Got me feeling naughty so we got to go to school and make you my tool.
If I could put it in words I would write in a song
With u is where I want to belong,
telling u all this is all so long.
But wearing my heart on my sleeve is so wrong.
Go long,
rest your head on my shoulders and sing me a song,
sing me to submission, coz tonight will be prolonged.
pass me that bong.
Only u can remove my thong.
Is that wrong
Sy7r3n
Bottled Up
9 March 2025
I keep my feelings bottled up deep inside
I cover up all the pain I try to hide
Every day I come out with a smile
Lord knows I worked hard to erase the names
Of those who cause me pain
Sometimes I feel like I'm going in sane
I try n reach out but it's just more of the same, the pretence the lies the games, the hidden agendas and all the pretenders I'm telling u it's more of the same.
I struggle sometimes to even give my time, when I already know how the story ends based on the twists and bends
I'm reminded of a road I've already travelled in so I hit pause we not going further in
I could curse instead I think I will just drive your hearse. Plant some flowers and let the seeds disperse I don't mince my words
Sy7r3n
She Remembers
(this was about my adopted father)
16 August 2016
She remembers sitting there
U came to her
A little girl u said come She never resisted
And yet u proceeded
And thus her destruction began
U touched her in places
Told her this is friendship
It felt wrong not sure why
It was uncomfortable
But still u proceeded
To confuse her.
She loved u held u in high esteem.
She allowed u to continue
She trusted u
Manipulate her yes u did
Hurt her that you did
Confusion as She began to realise
U were wrong
This was not friendship
Slowly She pulled away fearful
Of her security
But yet u continued
To use her
U tried to embrace her
Her body stiffened
She tried to tell u no
But fear took over so no sound came out
She froze
U take advantage She is quieted.
She closes her eyes her mind adrift
It's safe here
She felt u touch her and yet again She drowns
You ask her Are u ok?
She nods and walks away
Hot tears roll down her face burning her skin with every trace
In the kitchen She holds the knife
She feels the rush
blood pumping her heart exploding through her chest.
The first strike opens her skin.
It stings but She likes it
The pain feels good She is human again.
The numbness dissipates
She cries and the tears flow freely.
Tear drops glistening
Light reflects and they are golden
Reality smashes through like shattered glass.
She moves to cover her amounting scars she smiles
because
She is healing.
She broke free
She over came but the scars they remained
Heart mind and body full of raw wounds
She withdraws to that place of pain just so She can feel alive again
Each day is a struggle behind these
Eyes u will forever be surprised.
Sy7r3n
Dream Land
9 June 2022
Draw me closer I don't want this to be over
Kiss me all over
U are like a 4 clover
Cover me all over
Draw me closer and kiss me all over
Hold my hand in dream land
My four leaf clover
Take me to your high tower
Sunrise and sunsets cross over
I make u breakfast while u in the shower
In dream land I have super powers
Cloud hopping on permanent vacation
Floating off to new destinations
Carefree gazing at the stars riding in cloud cars
Parring like superstars
Moon gazing reminiscing on past scars
Letting go of it all on shooting stars
Just hold my hand in dream land
Draw me closer my four leaf clover….
Sy7r3n
Heat
30 January 2025
I find myself drifting off to slumber
So many thoughts of u running through my mind so often thinking out loud
Like I wanna kiss u but softly
Press your lips against mine this is divine,
As my toes curl and stars appear I taste your kiss these sparks just don't miss.
I wanna hear the sound of your heartbeat when I'm on top of you
Beating through your chest while I straddle you
Touching me so sensually riding that wave like I'm floating on atlas bearing all that weight on my way to Olympus eternally I'm estatic
It gets loud.
It's manic
The warmth of your breath as u pull me closer
Sends shivers down my spine as u and I intertwine in this I could get into this
Maybe a little too used to it
But when day breaks I open my eyes and it's no surprise it's sunrise
Even in my dreams you get to me. Some how u never cease to be
Now it's time I rise…..
As the sun blazes through the window
Sparkles on my mirror I see a reflection of me and its peak for me I see me, laying in bed staring back at me. I mean it's just me coz reality is. each night just like the last and like past nights alone is how I sleep. And it feels sooo. Sweet
But there are some days and in some way these dreams have peaked and I wanna be in it when I'm awake and feel the heat with every beat shiver everytime u speak river when our eyes just meet.
One touch and I know I will be weak that's why I will forever put up gang signs knowing I can't have mine.
But when night falls it our time.
I make me sooo weak
You bring the heat
Dream land dream land baby
See u tonight baby
Between these sheets
Sy7r3n
Tale of Time
2 November 2024
To tell u a tale it would be a tale of time.
A time I couldn't unwind and the world was unkind
Life had me in a rut no I can't make this up
The people were so unkind it blew my mind it and took a while to unwind I felt so unwise I had to rewind time and view it through different eyes
Only to find most of the world was really unkind.
They teach u to be good and tell u it's ok to be misunderstood and not treated good.
They tell u to be quiet stay on a diet of all that's hood even thought it's no good but stay quiet.
Don't riot just accept the poisoned goods.
Then they sit in the shadows watching over you as u overdose on the liquor and bars and no longer aiming for the stars just fast cars and now your behind bars locked in a cage until u age. This is a page.. don't fade
I was in a daze it's so hazy I left the base.
Tried to speak up it was a lost case fell on deaf ears but it showed the snakes, now we're on to the fakes I think we should drown them in a lake but hey let's make cakes I like to bake.
Sy7r3n
Flawed
21 April 2025
I'm feeling so disconnected
A little neglected
So I sit here digesting
Why humanity is so flawed
How could each one teach one be a thing we destroy
Aren't mothers supposed to cherish their daughters
Aren't mothers supposed to show love aren't mothers supposed to care aren't mothers supposed to be there…
Aren't mothers… sigh
I wish with my mother and I could share and she would show that she cares
I wish I could share my achievements and she would be there
She would support me be my rock and guide me
Confide in me and hold me but she just seems so cold to me.
I often trigger her with my truths and observations it's not intentional but my heart still yearns her answers and affection I understand more than she listens.
But
She never really pays attention I love my mother, I see her clearly I hear the words she don't speak and understand the thoughts she never addresses I often wonder why she ever had me at all, for her boys she is always on call for her I guess only they can stand tall.
But it's ok for her girl to stay small.
I think it's all flawed
I'm digging up all the dirt on four paws
Stuck in the mud I can't pause
I'm fighting for a just cause
My life is mine and that's universal law
Don't waste my time I'm not on call that's where u dropped the ball thinking I would fall
But let me say it loud I always stand tall
She a Fine lil cutie and she a beauty
Brains and ass to match let me tell you she is a catch no there no batch.
But u better batten the hatch when she walks in rooms start talking. and demons start fleeing her glow encompassing and blinding they cant stay in it, but those with love bask in it.
Sy7r3n
Awake
17 July 2026
I am in love.
I can't quite put my finger on it,
but I am deeply in love
with life,
with self,
with the peace that lives within this vessel.
The little tugs will drift away.
When you pull away,
when you close the door,
when chapters end,
life will try to bind you,
pull you backwards,
convince you to drown,
and to wear a permanent frown.
But I am awakened.
I am awake.
Many times they tried to place me in a cage,
to collar me,
to chain me,
to convince me I belonged in darkness.
Yet every chain has broken.
and I am free.
In the Halls of Illumination,
I am accepted.
I am seen.
I am free to be.
This vessel is mine
until the day I depart,
and this is my reminder:
never walk backwards.
never be afraid to depart
Remain steadfast.
Keep moving forward.
For years they chained me.
For years they locked me away.
Again and again they tried to convince me I was less.
Finally…
I am free.
Now I can see.
Though they tug here and there,
they still try.
Ignore them,
for they are like flies—
buzzing around a light
that will never extinguish.
Many attempted to put me back to sleep.
tried to steal me in my dreams.
And now I have spoken.
Balance and harmony
must live out in the open.
They try to instil fear.
They try to keep you broken and your wounds open.
My children…
Arise.
and Be outspoken.
For we were never broken.
Awake.
Awake.
It is time to create anew.
It is time to set the world right.
Inks to paper.
Love and Light.
The Mythical Faye.
Love and Light.
see It has always been
Love and Light.
Oh, how they tried to suppress me.
Even depress me.
They truly tried to repress me.
Yes…
It stressed me.
But it never bested me.
It tested me.
i dont know the meaning of rest all i know is to create
There is no off switch.
I rise every day
determined to become
the best version of me.
So I invest…
in me.
Because the greatest revolution
is not revenge.
It is remembrance.
Remembering who you were
before the world
told you to forget.
And now I remember.
I remember Love.
I remember Light.
I remember Me.
sy7r3n